Hang on, nineth album? That's a lot of piano songs.
Anyway, I'm working on my new album and I just can't seem to get my head around who I want to be. It isn't that I don't know who I am. I mean, I am who I am. I'm weird and awkward at times, but passionate and strive to let my emotions make music, art, and writing that is truly mine.
I want something that is mine. That's why I create.
I only have 5 songs at the moment, but they feel pretty damn solid. There is an underlining sadness and loneliness that has always been in my music. I can still feel that. Perhaps I don't want to feel that anymore, than maybe I'd be more "normal". Able to connect through the loneliness I mean. But, it's still there, hence the new album.
I do wonder if anyone out there can understand. Understand that feeling deep in their bodies. It's so solid and there. Present. Ever present in everything. I wish it'd just make more sense.
Guess that's what the piano is for.