"What is wrong with me?" I keep thinking. I'm staring off into space. There's this void in front of me. Suddenly I feel nothing. Because it's far less painful to feel nothing. I'm out of my body again. But I want to feel something. But I get headaches now when I feel. What am I supposed to be feeling?
Regardless, I am trying to hide this. Keep my thoughts to myself. If I smile a lot no one will notice. Don't let anyone know I'm thinking incredibly ridiculous things. Stay off in the corner and cry so no one sees.
But this doesn't work. And the cracks are showing.
Anxiety is asking a few questions in a patterned row. The person you're talking to hears the same question, but your perception is you are asking different questions.
Alas, thus a true Martian feels differently. Do my words sound just? Are they inventive enough? Perhaps I'm talking to a void and no one really is listening. Where do I go wrong? What am I even trying to say?
Maybe I'm trying to ask if anyone else feels this way? But I don't think I've explained what feeling I'm feeling in the first place...
So then.... what?
Regardless, I am trying to hide this. Keep my thoughts to myself. If I smile a lot no one will notice. Don't let anyone know I'm thinking incredibly ridiculous things. Stay off in the corner and cry so no one sees.
But this doesn't work. And the cracks are showing.
Anxiety is asking a few questions in a patterned row. The person you're talking to hears the same question, but your perception is you are asking different questions.
Alas, thus a true Martian feels differently. Do my words sound just? Are they inventive enough? Perhaps I'm talking to a void and no one really is listening. Where do I go wrong? What am I even trying to say?
Maybe I'm trying to ask if anyone else feels this way? But I don't think I've explained what feeling I'm feeling in the first place...
So then.... what?